Remembrance of Things Present : Steven Foster’s Repetition Series Photographs - Morton Feldman’s Triadic Memories
Clark Lunberry
“When  I saw an external object, my awareness that I was seeing it would  remain between me and it, surrounding it with a thin spiritual border  that prevented me from ever touching its substance directly;
 for it would somehow evaporate before I could make contact with it, just as an incandescent body
 that is brought into proximity with something wet never actually touches its moisture because
 it is always preceded by a zone of evaporation.” 
-Marcel Proust, Swann’s Way
“We do not hear what we hear…, only what we remember.”
-Morton Feldman 
How are we to look at Steven Foster’s Repetition Series  photographs?  How are we to see what is there… and there… and there?   Indeed, it seems that the more familiar modes of looking at  photographs—even Foster’s own earlier photographs—are with this new body  of work being quietly questioned as the images, in their repetitions,  split off from each other, digitally splitting—like cells dividing—often  into identical copies of themselves.  For in the repetition of an  image, our eyes are gently teased or tested, lyrically led to try and  see the singular in the plural, the plural in the singular.  And perhaps  that is, in a sense, part of the power, beauty, and uncertainty of  Foster’s repetitive photographs:  we may not be quite sure how to look  at them, how to see the repeated scenes repeated, and repeated again.   Change without change, movement without movement, how does one look at  repetition, see what has already been seen? 
We know that Foster has been drawn to the work of the composer Morton Feldman (1926-1987) whose quiet music is distinguished by its patterned repetitions, its seeking of “stasis” in stilled sound, and its crafted “disorientations” of memory. But where does the corollary go from there? Perhaps Foster has sensed in Feldman’s music an acoustic affinity to his own perceptual tendencies, one that might even acknowledge—agreeing with the composer—that not only do we “not hear what we hear…, only what we remember” but, neither perhaps do we see what we see. But what do we see? How do we see? Might it be that to see anything, we must remember having seen, in which case we must see in, or through, or upon, the moment of remembrance itself? And to repeat a photograph is perhaps thus to integrate the act of remembrance into the photograph so that we might in fact see something of our own remembrance, see ourselves remembering (in order to see at all). As such, the repetitions, in both the music and the photographs, may indeed make momentarily possible a seeing and hearing of what can’t be immediately seen or heard: to see ourselves not seeing, not hearing, but seeing and hearing, memorably, something of that—a sounded absence, an affective, ephemeral presence.
Through Foster’s and Feldman’s shared stillnesses, their careful patternings and essential spacings, and especially their delicate and deliberate repetitions, there is perhaps a kind synesthetic bond to be seen and heard between them, such that we might, if careful, see the one through the other, hear the other, through the one. And, as a result of such a graceful pairing, we may also find out something from them both about the complex dimensions of staying still, of paying attention.
I  recall, a couple of years back, standing on the shores of Lake Michigan  in South Milwaukee, staring out at the water, the light, the horizon,  and trying to see more fixedly what was before me, to hold firmly that  luminously expansive sight, as if somehow to imprint it onto the  delicate cornea of my eyes (my own head acting as a kind of camera).   And, briefly, doing it, seeing it, or something of it,  but also finally failing to fix the image, to contain its singular  certainty for any length of time.  For whether I liked it or not, in the  end, I was always to see something of myself impatiently seeing the  scene—(I, as repeated and plural, before the lake’s singularity)—seeing  myself seeing myself see it.  In other words, unable to remain in place  and stay focused, I  kept getting in the way of my own seeing, as my divided eyes, nudged  along by time, were intersected by the obligation to think, to think  about itself, to think about itself thinking and seeing, and in that  very thought-filled, word-filled moment, to be blind-sided by my very  desire to see.  As with Proust’s “external object” (referred to in the  epigraph above) forever preceded by “a thin spiritual border… a zone of  evaporation” that prevented him “from ever touching its substance  directly” (I 96), my own determined eyes seemed similarly interrupted,  dispersing—or evaporating—what might be imagined as time’s more  immediately desired destination, a simpler sight—here, now (or, what  was, on that shore, there, then). 
Perhaps—now,  here—by looking at one of Foster’s new photographs, and then thinking  about it in relation to aspects of Morton Feldman’s music, some of these  issues involving how we see and hear—or don’t—might find some partial  accompaniment.  For example, there is in Foster’s  new series of photographs a small, square black-and-white image of a  particularly foggy landscape:  a body of reflecting water, perhaps a  small lake or a cove, and a rather large tree extending out from the  left side of the picture over the water; in the distance, across the  lake, we can make out what vaguely appear as several other, smaller  trees (or clumps of trees; it’s not clear) that are quite evenly spaced  on the horizon line.  This image is divided almost equally between water  and sky, with the trees softly reflected upon the surface of the lake,  doubling the image.  And in fact, it is the reflected trees below that  are a bit more sharply defined than the trees above—the real trees—such  that the reflection itself is slightly more vivid than that which is  being reflected.
As described, and as titled, this photograph shows a foggy landscape, all details bleached white by the light that is exposing, over-exposing, the scene, as if the fog itself were rolling into the image, onto the paper. Indeed, it almost seems that if the photograph were to bleach any further it might simply merge invisibly into the surrounding whiteness of the print, absorbed entirely by the light—no longer to be seen. But even as it is, the image is quite hard to see, as if one needs to squint, or strain one’s eyes, in order to make out what is visible in the photograph, as if such straining were needed to see anything at all.
But,  of course, the photograph doesn’t simply end there, because, like  nearly all of the other photographs in this series, Foster then repeats  the image as a grouping of three apparently identical images placed  alongside each other, separated by a narrow border—as he horizontally  repeats what, as I described it, is already a vertically reflected  repetition of itself.  As seen, what we have here are repetitions of a  repetition, the doubling of the already doubled, the image digitally  dispersing into a duplicate, triplicate of itself.  And indeed, it is  very much the digital technology involved in the making of Foster’s new  photographs that allows now also for their identical, endless repetition  (while perhaps offering a newly emerging photographic aura from this  more contemporary mode of “mechanical reproduction”—particles of light  digitally translated into patterned permutations of themselves, printed  reflections of a potentially infinite equivalence).  The repetition of  water and sky, the repetition of the trees above and below, trees that  were already seeming nearly to repeat themselves in their fixed  formation on the horizon.  And then, compositionally, the repetition of  these repetitions, that creates a kind of afterimage, of an afterimage,  of an afterimage, all finally seen through the cataracting fog of the  photograph, at the very vanishing point of its own visibility.  But, as  I’ve just presented them, if all of the images are after-images,  where is the image?  And, with this foggy landscape, what kind of a  vanishing image, what kind of visible images, is this… are these? 
Finally, adding yet another dimension of repetition to this photograph, as well as many others in this new series, is the fact that Foster has retrieved this particular image from his own archive of collected work taken over the past several decades; in this case, the Foggy Landscape triad is a revision of a piece from his Images of Eden Series, 1982-83. As such, one sees that the repetitions within Foster’s series extend not only formally and compositionally (within the printed photographs themselves), but also temporally and historically (within the narrative of Foster’s own development as a photographer), as he returns to his body of images, repeating aspects of his own seeing, aspects of his own seeing self.
     To assist us in the seeing of such repetitions, we might now examine  what it is to hear repetition.  And so, as promised, to reflect further  upon Foster’s repetitive photographs, I want to shift our attention and speak directly, and at some length, of Morton Feldman and his Triadic Memories, a composition that seems in many ways built upon and sustained by repetition.  But  as I’m speaking of the music, keep the described image of Foster’s  foggy landscape in mind, remembering its patterned trees, its divided  horizon, its repeated repetitions—and finally, its own triadic  arrangement; the photograph, whether here or there (remembered or not),  to be somehow squintingly seen, as if through a kind of fog.  
Or to recall, another lake, Lake Michigan, and me on its shores, staring out, intersected by time, vainly trying to see, only to see something of myself seeing (as if I, as an image—an after-image of myself—were the one now repeating, my own eyes dividing). Memories failing, the seeing eyes suddenly see themselves blind.
Ever since a friend, many years ago, unexpectedly gave me a copied cassette of Triadic Memories,  I’ve been a fervent admirer of Morton Feldman’s music.  What I was  almost instantly drawn to in this late piano piece (1981) was the manner  in which the music combined a formal, audible intricacy with an  undeniable emotional charm, even, at times, an unabashed beauty.  By  joining a gently crafted dissonance with an enduring degree of melodic  enticement, Triadic Memories  seemed to be a rare piece of contemporary classical music that was both  smart and sensual, conceptually complex yet utterly alluring.  And this  composition possessed as well many of the familiar features of  Feldman’s late work with its extended duration (lasting, in Louis  Goldstein’s rendition, nearly two full hours), its repetitions gradually  evolving into new patterns of other repetitions, and a sustained  stillness held throughout the piece, with silence—perhaps like white  borders surrounding a printed image—used as a kind of counterpoint to  the performed sounds.
I had also been led to Feldman by my earlier interest in his older friend and mentor, John Cage. Their names were frequently linked as part of what would become known as the New York School of composers that was to emerge, alongside parallel movements in the visual arts, in the late 1940’s and 1950’s, and on into the 1960’s. Early on, Feldman was motivated, in large part by his encounters with Cage, to write music in which one would hear the performed sounds in all their immediate, tactile qualities, to disrupt the deafening habits of our hearing so that we might finally listen in ways unencumbered by historical memory, inherited convention and fixed formula. Feldman, echoing Cage, wrote of his earliest compositional orientation that, “Only by ‘unfixing’ the elements traditionally used to construct a piece of music could the sounds exist in themselves—not as symbols, or memories which were memories of other music to begin with” (35). The stated desire of the composer was to penetrate beneath, beyond, the perceived historical obstructions to hearing, arriving unencumbered at the origins of unmediated sound, into the very heart of its sonorous matter.
Cage, of course, famously pursued throughout his life just such an endeavor to open the ears to a more profound, direct kind of listening. His infectious intensity and his endless means of invention would seem to have impacted an entire generation (or two, or three) to strive to finally hear “Just sounds, sounds free of judgments about whether they are ‘musical’ or not, sounds free of memory and taste…, sounds free of fixed relations” (116). And Cage, already by the early 1950’s, believed that many of Feldman’s first compositions effectively manifested such a liberated listening, the live performances of the young composer’s music seeming to offer access to the sounds in all their resonant power and purity. In his seminal book Silence (1961), Cage wrote extensively of Feldman’s music and its capacity to so movingly deliver the “tender” and sometimes “violent” sounds to us, to make themselves present and accounted for, available for our immediate sensual reception.
For Cage, there was the belief, the desire to believe, that sounds—any and all sounds—could be construed musically, and that in the final account “Everything is music.” For Feldman, however, his “only argument with Cage” (29), as he described it later in his own writings, lay here, believing as he did that everything was decidedly not music, and that there remained intractably, regrettably perhaps, an indeterminate realm apart, a distance, a detachment, by which his music was then to define itself, find itself defined. In a sense, many of the important questions Cage had initiated about music, and of our own reception of sound and silence, were then taken by Feldman and pushed, both theoretically and performatively, in rather different directions. Indeed, pursuing ever more complexly many of the difficulties of writing and listening to music, Feldman was to come to conclusions that would often seem quite contrary to Cage’s, risking that nothing—as opposed to everything—is music, while continuing nonetheless to try to make it, to listen for it.
For Feldman, alongside and perhaps in conflict with his desire to, as he said, “hear the sounds themselves,” seemed simultaneously aware of a kind of sound barrier existing between himself and the music, between the performance of the written notes and the seemingly inevitable delayed reaction to their reception. As a consequence of our own deflected awareness of the sounds, the performed music, existing in time, must always remain somehow off-limits, or out of sync with our hearing of it, just beyond the range of our own acoustic reception. Reflecting something of this estrangement, Marcel Proust—a favorite author of Feldman’s—was to write of his fictional composer Vinteuil, and of the “little phrase” of his sonata that was so elusively sought:
Doubtless the notes which we hear… tend, according to their pitch
and volume, to spread out before our eyes over surfaces of varying 
dimensions, to trace arabesques, to give us the sensation of breadth 
or tenuity, stability or caprice.  But the notes themselves have
vanished before these sensations have developed sufficiently to 
escape submersion under those which the succeeding or even 
simultaneous notes have already begun to awaken in us. (I 228)
In place of the felt immediacy of the music, the performed, passing sounds were more likely to be heard in a kind of decayed, disintegrating retreat from their otherwise unlocatable source. For Feldman, affirming, or perhaps, circumscribing, an even more radically ephemeral event than what Cage was proposing, what we hear is perhaps only what remains of the sound’s very vanishing—what we hear is, in a sense, not there, never quite there, always having just passed us by. Listening, one is unable to fix where the sounds exist in relation to one’s hearing, with each subsequent sound, as Feldman described it, “eras[ing] in one’s memory what happened before” (qtd. in Zimmerman 230). Any aspirations to a Cage-like, musicated immediacy, must consequently be side-stepped or bracketed, replaced by some other kind of hope or expectation, some other means of musical formation that takes into account what Proust elsewhere described as “that ineluctable law which ordains that we can only imagine that which is absent” (III 905), we can only hear what is no longer there to be heard, see what is no longer there to be seen.
By working, as Feldman wrote “with the decay of each sound,” a piece of music performed by a musician, and listened to by us, would thus present itself as a kind of material manifestation of entropic dispersal and decline, a sounded site of time forever slipping away from our own awareness of it, as a record (or recording) of our own resounding failure to apprehend anything at all. “Decay… this departing landscape, this expresses where the sound exists in our hearing—leaving us rather than coming toward us” (25). And instead of Feldman’s music reflecting Cage’s more sensual silence, or his famous “celebration that we own nothing,” one is more likely to hear instead something that, while perhaps less liberating and celebratory, resonates nonetheless, but more indeterminately, reflecting in part Feldman’s own enduring attraction to the work of Samuel Beckett, what he described of the author as “a kind of shared longing…. this saturated, unending longing” (qtd. in Frost 51).
Into the 1970’s and 1980’s, Feldman was thus to distinguish himself further, apart from Cage and the others, as a writer of increasingly long compositions, pursuing through his music a delicate arrangement of disintegrating sound, a kind of hermetic, Proustian investigation of the workings of memory, the subtle intricacies and evasions of how we hear. So often in these later compositions, Feldman repeats familiar patterns of notation, quiet chords, gentle dissonances soothingly played again and again. For long stretches of time (and contributing to the composition’s necessary length), we may find ourselves listening almost distractedly to the sounds, remembering the familiar arrangements as they fleetingly pass by, recalling what Nietzsche was to describe as “the kind of beauty that infiltrates slowly” (105). And then, abruptly, just when we think we know what we’re going to hear, just when memory has taken over and seems to be listening for us (relieving us of the burden of trying to hear anything at all), Feldman might change a single note, minutely adjust a chordal configuration—an unfamiliar key—played upon the piano, or a string of the violin unexpectedly struck. Involuntarily, and as if it was somehow permeating our memory, this sudden sound seems to echo from out of previously patterned arrangements. And contained within this newest sound, it is as if there is a weight of duration that extends it through two moments as once—like a memory materially heard, the past sound instantly recollected in the present. Recalling what the poet Wallace Stevens described as a “A music more than a breath, but less / Than the wind, sub-music like sub-speech, / A repetition of unconscious things” (232), the sound, itself decaying, has thus proven itself dependent upon a field of involuntary remembrance, skating upon it, as if marking the movement of its own disappearance.
With enough time taken so that memory itself is stretched and strained towards its own tethered limit, and by applying in his lengthiest compositions what Feldman described as “a synthesis between variation and repetition,” the composer created patterned gradations of contiguous sound that were both “concrete and ephemeral,” “frozen, at the same time they are vibrating.” Feldman would thus give passing shape to that which he described as a kind of acoustic “object,” an ec-static form, with the piece existing not “in time or about time, but… as Time…. Time as an image” (86). Also, by marking and measuring the dimensions of its own vanishing, insistently demarcating a disappearance, the music may finally, ephemerally, be heard as the sedimented sound of time, time itself sounding. Feldman once wrote that “I know that when I write a piece [of music],… I’m telling people ‘We’re not gonna be here very long” (qtd. in Gizzi 253). The irony, of course, is that it might take a long time—nearly two uninterrupted hours perhaps (as in Goldstein’s rendition of Triadic Memories)—to get that message across, to make it finally felt.
Shaping such a musical “object” into the contemporary equivalent of a memento mori, Feldman understood that other compositional strategies would have to be undertaken in order to accommodate a more complex form of musical writing and awareness. For the earlier listening innocence had given way to a more hardened kind of hearing, one in which the difficult task was now to write music with this acoustic division and delay in mind, anticipating the de-composing sounds themselves as always elsewhere, never quite punctuating the piece at the precise moment intended, but echoing instead after the fact as a faint trace of itself, as a resonance (memorably) registered.
The question however remains as to how we might hear that—remembrance—as if, once-removed, the sounds, decayed, might somehow be made to return (in some ghostly manner), to sound, perhaps inaudibly, in their own resounding absence. How are to hear ourselves presently remembering, to approach and achieve a remembrance of things present?
To hear such a sound, to see such a sight, might Feldman’s music, heard, remembered having been  heard, now offer a way of seeing something more in Foster’s new  photographs, and a way of thinking more concretely about his  repetitions?  Let’s return, briefly, to Foster’s foggy landscape,  remembering its repetitions, alongside Feldman’s own, and his  description of his music as occurring upon a “departing landscape.”  As  you’ll recall, in that photograph, seeing itself was not easily seen,  for the image was bleached, nearly lost in its own occluding light, the  photograph imagined even as a kind of emblematic reflection of the  difficulty of seeing; Foster’s own photograph as a Feldmanesque  “departing landscape,” barely there, evaporating untouched, threatening  to vanish entirely.
Feldman’s  repetitions were built upon a patterning of repeated notes, a sound  sustained across time, remembered along a continuum, with the  repetitions used as a means of reinforcing a forgotten sound,  reinforcing one’s hearing of one’s forgetting.  But also, such  repetitions might now be imagined as offering as well a crafted  resistance to time, while also requiring time as a condition to hear it,  to hear anything at all—time as singular object, time as a pluralized  event.  For in hearing such a sound, forgetting it, and then hearing it  again … and again, one is perhaps made to hear, however hauntedly,  something of time itself.  And while Feldman’s music is necessarily  temporal, heard in time,  with one note following the next, always—like words in a  sentence—promising another, Foster’s photographs, because they are still  photographs, partake of time quite  differently.  
This  returns us to the question of how to look at these photographs, how to  look at repetition.  For by repeating an image, Foster is, in a sense,  applying time to his photographs, obliging us to see in  time, as our eyes move from identical image to identical image, and  back again, remembering as they go—never instantly or completely there…  or there… or there, but made to move, to see the same thing again and  again, and to remember seeing it.  Like film stills that are truly still  (because they are the same), the images move, without moving anywhere  at all.  Looking at the repetitions—seen singularly or plural, from here  or there, this way or that way—has the effect of mobilizing our own  seeing, seeing through a consciousness of temporality; and  linguistically, seeing (as we perhaps must) through a scrim of words,  the photographs are apprehended now not  as steadied nouns, but as active verbs—events, taking place—through our  own peripatetic perceptions of them.  To stand before Foster’s  repetitions, to try and see what is contained there is to, in a sense,  find oneself divided by time, split in three, dispersed into a triadic  form of memoried perceptions.  And so, to repeat what we’ve seen, not seen, to reinforce and reiterate it, so that it might be remembered presently, seeing… memorably… now.
The  still image, our moving eyes—Foster’s photograph, as both a singular,  static object and a mobilized, pluralized event, might even be  understood to have attained something of what Feldman described as a  kind of “synthesis between variation and repetition”; seeing what cannot  be seen, alongside that which can, and the movement of disappearance  between them that will not reveal itself; an ec-static form, an  ec-static photograph, with the image existing (like the sustained,  remembered sounds of the piano), not “in time or about time,” as Feldman insisted, “but … as Time …. Time as an image.” 
In Søren Kierkegaard’s Repetition,  the Danish philosopher writes of an “experiment” that he undertook to  discover whether “repetition is possible and what importance it has”  (133).  He had journeyed to Berlin several years before and decided to  return to the beloved city again to see if he might be able to somehow  repeat the experience that he had earlier enjoyed so much.  Arriving by  the same train, he checked into the lodgings that he had stayed at  before, visited the same café and restaurant, and even went to the same  comic theater that he had earlier attended.  On this second visit to the  city, however, what our traveler ended up discovering was that,  disappointingly, there simply was no repetition to be found—the  furniture in his rented room had been ever so slightly rearranged, the  light through the café windows fell differently upon the floor, and most  appallingly of all, perhaps, the theatrical performance he attended  failed to present itself as it had before—“should not even that be  capable of repetition,” he writes (169).  In the end, Kierkegaard was to  draw what seems a paradoxical, yet nonetheless revealing conclusion,  one that goes something like this:  if you can’t have an experience  twice, then you can’t have it once; if it can’t be repeated, then  apparently it can’t be had at all.  
Confronted  by such a conundrum that finds our philosopher neither here nor there,  this way nor that, what happens to the one so suddenly set adrift from  the recognizably repeated, the recollectedly real?  Stepping (only once)  into such a singular stream, “the individual…, not an actual shape but a  shadow, or, more correctly, the actual shape…, invisibly present…”  (154), what remains to be seen, to be done, under such dispersed,  unrepeating circumstances?  Defeated, Kierkegaard’s traveler wearily  decided simply to return home to Copenhagen, ending prematurely his  visit while nonetheless realizing that, in the final account, “My  discovery was not significant, and yet it was curious, for I had  discovered that there simply is no repetition and had verified it by  having it repeated in every possible way” (171).
Kierkegaard’s  curious journey to Berlin, his failed but fruitful “experiment” seeking  repetition, reminds me now of Steven Foster’s own unfailing  photographic experiments with his Repetition Series.   For instance, in one particular photograph we can see simply three  white bed sheets hanging on a laundry line.  The rectangular fabric is  luminous at its center, vividly conveying the translucent light.  The  three sheets, slightly separated from each other on the extended  clothesline, are surrounded by a pitch black background, a background so  bold that it makes the three sheets seem all the more radiant.  Also,  there is, it seems, another, more darkly shadowed sheet repeated that  hangs just behind the first ones; a single clothes pin is visible  holding it on the laundry line.
Here,  as in the foggy landscape, is another repetition of a single image, the  same sheet repeated three times.  But this time, Foster has altered the  photograph subtly, but even more radically than before, such that the  clothesline upon which the sheets are hanging has been neatly lined up  and linked, digitally stitched together so as to appear as a single,  long clothesline extending uninterrupted across the image.  And, unlike  the repetitions of the foggy landscape, where each image was in its own  carefully delineated square surrounded by a light grey border, in this  photograph the repetitions have been joined compositionally together  into a single horizontal image.  Indeed, it appears that we are seeing  three sheets, the same sheet, three times, hanging identically,  impossibly together.  And what divided the earlier foggy landscape  (while also dividing our seeing of the image) has here been even more  stealthily conjoined, while making it less difficult to see and think  this image as one image, seen singularly, like a chordal configuration,  a triadic pattern of repetition, sounded out upon a piano.
Three  identical bed sheets hanging on a single clothes line.  But wait; are  we really seeing a repetition here?  For not only have the borders  between the three images been eliminated, digitally linking the lines,  stitching the sheets into a single scene, but, looking longer, one  suddenly sees, just behind the one bed sheet on the left (and only  behind that sheet), there is discretely visible in the shallow  background a couple of shadowed, vertical slats from a white picket  fence.  The slats of the fence are not easy to see, nor perhaps are they  immediately seen (or possibly even seen at all if one doesn’t take the  time to look closely), but once  seen, the repetition within the photograph is deftly, instantaneously  altered.  For, in what seems a particularly Feldmanesque moment, with a  Feldmanesque kind of repetition, while the visible repetition of the bed  sheets is clearly, luminously registered—immediately seen—there is  faintly noted as well, but in time, a kind of delicately delayed  reaction, like a gently heard undertone, the two shadowed slats of the  fence, quietly adjusting the repetitive patterns within this chromatic  field of light and darkness.  With visibility and invisibility  intricately interwoven, what is finally seen here is both instantly  singular, but, with the fence behind, instantly plural; a  (Kierkegaardian) repetition that is a repetition that is not quite a repetition—both the one and the other, repetition and difference, simultaneously seen. 
Of  such repetitions, and with the kind of discrete detail as the shadowed  fence (what Foster, when I asked him about it, described to me in an  e-mail, quite wonderfully, as the “fence event”), let’s now return again  directly to Feldman, and even more specifically to his Triadic Memories.  
Triadic Memories is  a quiet composition made up primarily of meticulously arranged piano  patterns, a series of attenuated repetitions that only very gradually  adjust and reconfigure themselves upon a kind of delicately woven field  of sound, a temporal tapestry of concentrated stillness.  Like the  beloved Turkish rugs that Feldman later in life collected and drew  inspiration from, it is as if these chromatic fields of aural tone have  been carefully crafted and cast into thin air, threads of timbre and  nuance interlaced and entangling.  Familiarly melodic chords are placed  alongside gently dissonant ones in a kind of seductive tension, the two  apposite textures finally merging in such a manner that we are almost  made to forget which is which, both simply present in contiguous  arrangement.  With our habits of listening deftly loosened, the  asymmetrical patterns seem to circle ever more expansively about  themselves, tracing Vinteuil-like arabesques upon what Feldman called  his “time canvases,” reiterating their own sonorous structure before  dissipating into echo.  The piano’s atmospheric resonances decay into  deliberately placed silences, absences of sound that act as contrasting  but parallel elements to what is heard, a kind of counterpoint to the  notes themselves.  Indeed, elsewhere Feldman described his use of  notated silence as “my substitute for counterpoint.  It’s nothing  against something.  The degrees of nothing against something.  It’s a  real thing, it’s a breathing thing” (181).
The “breathing” of silence encountered in Triadic Memories seems at times, if listened for carefully, to be something (of nothing) that one might actually hear, registered at least as vividly as any of the silences that John Cage was more famously to present or propose. Through a kind of negative space within the composition, we are positioned to hear more acutely what isn’t there, alongside that which is—the sounded notations surrounded by sections of empty score. And accompanying these intervals of silence, Feldman instructed the pianist to perform much of the composition “ppp”—at the lowest possible volume—with the piano at times only faintly heard, seeming to submerge itself entirely beneath its own audibility (calling to mind a photograph filling with fog, over-exposing into an afterimage of absence). Also, within this sustained stillness, or collaborating with it, the pianist is instructed to hold the foot pedal down through the duration of the piece, causing a kind of constant echo to ring through the room, the sedimented sounds entropically lost at the edges of their own acoustic resonance. Or, as the pianist Louis Goldstein describes it, “The pedal, in effect, erases the silences and creates a wash of sound” (72).
Where Cage, seeking silence, was famously to enter a sound-proof anechoic chamber (only to encounter there the sounds of his own functioning body—the internal coursings and rumblings of his own blood, the incessant whirrings and ringings of his nervous system), Feldman presents instead an acoustic space in which listeners may function themselves as the anechoic chamber, situated and sound-proofed to hear aspects of their own hearing in the physical act of listening, their own directed ears as instruments of sensuous reception. The waved nuances of sound, felt materially, move through the narrowing chambers of the ear, tapering off toward their own particled dispersal, lost at the nerve ends, in the spiraling channels of the cochlea. At these taut moments of suspended resonance, Feldman did not intend his audience—as Cage likely would have—to listen for ambient noises within and beyond the concert hall, where “everything is music.” But instead, within this sounded vacancy, one may hear a more indeterminate kind of call involving a more ambivalent pleasure, “nothing against something,” the one abrading the other, chafing at the imperceptible edges of absence.
Two thirds of the way through Triadic Memories,  a particularly arresting passage is suddenly heard.  In a section  lasting around eight minutes, similarly spaced chords are slowly  repeated one after the other.  The pianist strikes a patterning of  notes, pacing the varied arrangements by raising and lowering the tones,  gently accelerating or slowing down the reverberating effect.  Feldman  himself described this particular section this way:  
One chord might be repeated three times, another, seven or eight—
depending on how long I felt it should go on.  Quite soon I would 
forget the reiterated chord before it.  I then reconstructed the entire 
section:  rearranging its earlier progression and changing the number 
of times a particular chord was repeated.  This way of working was a 
conscious attempt at “formalizing” a disorientation of memory.  Chords 
are heard repeated without any discernible pattern.  In this regularity 
(though there are slight gradations of tempo) there is a suggestion that 
what we hear is functional and directional, but we soon realize that this 
is an illusion; a bit like walking the streets of Berlin—where all the 
buildings look alike, even if they’re not. (137-138)
Sounding  something like a room full of clocks consecutively striking, in this  extraordinary section of the composition one has a sense of time both  being told, and of time winding down.  Indeed, by simultaneously marking  and erasing the moment’s duration, the varied chords would seem to be  thermodynamically dissolving toward their own directionless standstill.   And of the “stasis” that Feldman so frequently spoke—his desire to  shape structurally through his music a form “both concrete and  ephemeral,” “frozen, at the same time it’s vibrating”—this section comes  closest to manifesting just that, making stasis happen. 
As its title signals, Triadic Memories was written as a kind of acoustic investigation of memory and, as Feldman described it, “a conscious attempt at ‘formalizing’ a disorientation of memory.” For if, axiomatically, we do not hear what we hear, but what we remember, then perhaps it is only by disorienting memory that we might be made to hear anything at all, to hear something of our own remembrance. And as the music unfolds, finally arriving at the distinctive section of repeated chords, memory and thought are indeed both enlisted and disrupted towards a heightened awareness of hearing and of having heard, a re-membering of evanescent sound. Two different chords durationally separated may be recollected as a kind of inaudible overtone, or afterimage (recalling the faintly seen “fence event” in Foster’s hanging bed sheets), a sounded absence that creates “its own type of … equilibrium” (156). In a virtually silent synthesis of the two chords—one past, one present—a memoried triad may be finally, ephemerally felt, bringing to mind those described through Proustian metaphor in which impressions, as Proust wrote, “are experienced … at the present moment and at the same time in the context of a distant moment, so that the past was made to encroach upon the present and I was made to doubt whether I was in the one or the other” (III 904). Sound, and the memory of sound, can be heard collaborating on this flat field of sustained resonance, Feldman’s “time canvas,” conjuring in its mysterious form, a sounded absence, a durational presence. Like the buildings of Berlin, a crafted illusion is somehow conjured in which sound, and the memory of sound, can be heard collaborating—time as an image is thus briefly apprehended, even if it is not.
The  painter Wassily Kandinsky wrote that the “repetition of the same appeal  thickens the spiritual atmosphere which is necessary for the maturing  of the finest feelings, in the same way as the warm air of a greenhouse  is necessary for the ripening of certain fruit” (42).  And indeed, at  this most explicitly repetitive point of Feldman’s piece where the  pattern of chords is heard, and its “spiritual atmosphere” thereby  thickened (like fruit ripened by warmth), it seems we have been somehow  made to hear something of the sound of ourselves sensuously thinking in  time, remembering out of time, as thought’s own disparate, time-filled  sensations have been momentarily contained and arranged, held in moving  formation.  Thought, not as a linear, systematized arrangement of  words—that which had finally so troubled me on the shores of Lake  Michigan—(for that kind  of thought has been mercifully, if momentarily, suspended), but thought  as an affective condition of visceral consciousness, even, dare I say  it, as a fleeting state of grace, a passing sensation of memoried sound,  an instantaneous recognition, a mere moment—and then it is gone. 
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In our return now to Foster’s photographs, having evoked Kandinsky’s “spiritual atmospheres,” or spoken of “states of grace” (however fleeting they might prove to be), the bar of expectation has clearly been risen by such lofty language, perhaps unreasonably. Nonetheless, let’s see what further associations can be found.
In  one of Foster’s new color photographs, indeed, one that offers yet  another “fence event,” we see this time a brown wooden fence gracefully  arcing across the entire rectangular photograph, those familiar fences  seen on Lake Michigan’s beaches in winter to, I believe, control the  blowing sand.  If looked at closely, there are again in this photograph,  of course, repetitions, but here, instead of presenting the repetitions  separately, or surrounded by their own boundaries, the photograph has  been even more carefully treated, digitally eliminating virtually any  divisions within the image so that the fence appears entirely as one  interconnected thing, the repeated scene sutured into a single,  horizontally extended sight (with the wooden fence itself gracefully  shaping like a wave of water).  Then, across the entire image, Foster  has imposed a deliberate, digitally-printed grid, such that it appears  that we are looking through this formally, artificially imposed pattern  of lines, as if seeing through one fence, onto another.
While  just over the wooden, wavy fence (or fences), discretely, we can make  out just a thin band of Lake Michigan in the background where the fence  briefly curves down, or rather, three identical narrow bands of a  bleached blue (glimpses of the same lake that I, a couple of years back,  had tried so hard to see as I stood on its shores).  Through the  digital grid, over the wooden fence, an isolated view of the lake is  revealed—the singular lake now, un-nouned, as a kind of “lake event,” a  pluralized verb—but only as  seen, with our eyes mobilized, through the two layered divisions that  must first be gotten through, seen over, in order for one to see at all,  and then only partially:  the white light reflecting on the distant  lake, and then reflecting again—in its repetitions—something of our own  reflections upon it.  
In fact, such obstructions to seeing seem to be a recurring motif in many of Foster’s new photographs, as we are repeatedly made—as with the fences and grid—to look over and through barriers, or onto obstacles and flat surfaces. Or even more explicitly, Foster has made the photographs of the obstructions themselves, as we find ourselves frequently looking at the richly patterned surfaces of wooden walls, concrete walls, brick walls, closed garage doors, piles of concrete blocks, darkened windows, windows with their blinds pulled.
Or even in the numerous photographs of people, the figures are often turned from us, or walking away, as we see them only from behind; or, if they are facing us, hands cover the face, eyes tightly shut (the closed eyes as windows onto … closed eyes), our attention thus drawn to other details playing rhythmically upon that flat surface—the musicated patterning of fingernails, the shimmering beads on a bracelet, the arrangement of wrinkles, folds of the flesh.
Seen as surfaces (while recalling Feldman’s own, what he called, “obsession” with “surface,” “the subject of my music,” desiring as he did to make his music “flat”), such images of Foster’s are repetitively presented, as if the repeated obstacles to vision, the rhythmic redundancy of the barriers, have become something of the subject itself—what can’t be seen, as what is seen, but lyrically, lastingly so, as the silent scenes repeat themselves again and again and again; surfaces sensuously revealed in all their obstructive substance.
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In  his most recent, abstract work, Foster develops even further such  sensual surfaces, as the images themselves dissipate often entirely into  fields of particled light, dissolving form.  Recalling again Morton  Feldman’s working with the sound’s “decay… this departing landscape, this  expresses where the sound exists in our hearing—leaving us rather than  coming toward us,” and what he strikingly described as a “music where  aural dimension is obliterated” (25), Foster’s abstract images might now  be seen as similarly departing, decaying into their own digital  obliterations.  It was Proust who (in my opening epigraph) lamented the  apparent barrier that always arose whenever he approached his desired  object, describing this obstruction as a “zone of evaporation” that kept  him from ever touching the object’s surface directly—desire itself  interfering with desire’s attainment.  Significantly, however, Proust  was nonetheless to speak of this division as surrounded by “a thin  spiritual border,” one that was not merely obstructive (as borders are  often imagined), but as imbued with numinous implication.  There is  perhaps something in Foster’s most incandescent abstractions that, while  losing the readable contours of the observed object, might now be seen  as photographs of such a “zone of evaporation,” offering an image, not of the unattainable thing itself, but rather, of that “spiritual border” that longingly separates us from it.   As printed manifestations of desire’s own evaporating impact upon  one’s seeing, the abstracted photographs now remain as a kind of  luminous residue of the eye’s occlusive intervention, a further  cataracting distillation of image.
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Finally,  as a last example, in Foster’s new series there is yet another  photograph involving Lake Michigan, a photographic site to which Foster  has repeatedly returned.  In an almost perfectly divided composition, we  see a muted, gray sky above, and a darker lake below (with some patches  of shimmering waves in the extreme foreground).  The horizon line  itself, splitting the image in half, shines as a distinct band of  brilliant light that crosses the entire photograph from left to right.
  But, of course, that’s not the end of the story.  For Foster has  stacked three of these identical images on top of each other, literally  joining them together at the seam.  Digitally linked, the sky of the  middle image touches the water of the image above, while the sky of the  bottom image, joins with the water above it.  Stacked and bound in this  manner, the three repeated images form a single vertical image of lake  and sky, three lakes and three skies seen as one.  But then there’s  more.  For Foster then repeats this vertical repetition horizontally,  again and again, compositionally separated, to form triadic stacks of  the same triadic image.
This  photograph reminds me now of the earlier foggy landscape discussed,  offering— minus the reflected trees—a similarly divided scene of water  and sky.  However, in this photograph, it is as if the fog has finally  lifted onto this much larger, greater lake, revealing a clearer, crisper  image.  And in the photograph’s gridded precision, it suggests as well a  pictorial parallel to a stack of machine-crafted, stainless steel boxes  by Donald Judd, or also Hiroshi Sugimoto’s own photographed seascapes,  but with Foster here finally developing his image elsewhere, by  repeating what in Sugimoto’s work only often seems  repeated, by actually repeating it—the same scene nine times, or nine  scenes once; where Sugimoto collapses geographic space, Foster collapses  geometric time.  Yet unlike Foster’s photograph of the lake with the  wavy wooden fence, no shoreline is seen in this last lake image, nor are  there any fences to be seen through, no digital grid imposed onto it,  for the photograph itself has, as a kind of sculpted, specific object,  compositionally become  the grid, the flattened barrier through, or upon which, we must look.   With no shoreline from which to stand and see—to ground our  perceptions—we look, unmoored, directly at the repeated patterns of  light, onto the reflecting water, and into the blinding radiance of the  nine horizon lines.
But what are we looking at here?  What are we seeing?  What can we  see?  For here, the repetitions, in their repetitive excess—nine  identical images neatly bound into their patterned formation—appear  individually to almost cancel each other out; producing a kind of  incantatory dissolution of image, in their uncanny stacking and piling  up of repeated imagery:  an aporia of surplus sight.  Looking here and  there, up and down, moving about in time, always seeing the same image repeated (dispersing sight by mobilizing it); everything we see, we remember having seen,  as memories mutate seamlessly, inciting a kind of chain reaction—a  perceptual/conceptual collision—into memories of themselves remembering;  until, looking longer, something finally clicks (like a camera) into  momentary position, the eye and mind briefly stall, the language locks,  staying still, before an echoing image that, recalling Feldman, is  “concrete and ephemeral,” “frozen, at the same time it’s vibrating”—making stasis happen.  And in ceasing to see either singly, or multiply, but simultaneously both, a kind of unfenced  event shines, briefly—like that almost burningly radiant horizon  line—before my blinded eyes:  there, for a mere moment, a passing  sensation of memoried sight, an instantaneous recognition—and then it is  gone.
With  this final photograph, I find myself at the shores of the same Lake  Michigan from which, a few years back, I had stood so impatiently gazing  out, but from which I was unable then to stay still, to pay attention,  to see lastingly, wordlessly, what was before me—my divided eyes,  doubled and doubling, reflected repetitions of myself (as an afterimage,  as Kierkegaard’s “shadow… invisibly present”) trying to see myself see.   While Foster’s photograph, like Feldman’s Triadic Memories before, offers here a kind of response, or perhaps even something of a remedy to my restlessness—if I  can’t stay still and pay attention, then perhaps the image can, staying  still for me, and thus offering—multiply, memorably—a kind of  impossible sight, a coalescing correspondence of my own dividedness and  repetition, by the image’s own.  As if seeing itself were somehow  ordered—stacked and neatly seamed—around its own blind-spot, seeing  negatively now, a radiant record of my failure to see—seen—again and again and again.
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